I was working on a somewhat complex personal task the other day, while on a day off from work. In my efforts to be more mindful in general, I noticed that whenever I finished a small part of the task, I prompted myself to look away. Pop over to twitter, micro.blog or my RSS feeds. To see what was happening in the wider world. I’m grateful I was mindful enough to notice. But I was very frustrated with myself.
I focused and completed the task, as a whole. Afterwards, I spoke to my wife about the level of distraction I was facing. Why was I sabotaging myself?
Oh my God, it’s a mirage. I’m tellin’ y’all, it’s a sabotage
My days off on the holiday were great. I was able to focus on family. Maybe this is why I was more mindful while performing that particular task. Back at work, I’ve been turning off everything that could distract me. I’ve kept the apps closed. I shut it all down. I’m using one app at a time, to single-task as much as possible. To keep focus and avoid the mental break-ins disrupting my attention.
I can’t stand it, I know you planned it. I’m gonna set it straight, this Watergate
It is like I am breaking into my own headquarters, and trying to cover it all up.